“I sought my soul, but my soul I could not see.
I sought my God, but my God eluded me.
I sought my brother and I found all three.”
― Unknown
There's this Mormon message called The Will of God. It talks about how God loves us so much that He's willing to cut us down, so that He can build us back up again. It also discusses how we will look back on this experience and thank God for cutting us down and molded us to become more like the Daughter/Son of God we really are. You should check it out sometime! It's really good!
I was able to teach Lolee this week with Sister Reedy. It was very touching as she told us about what has been the cause of her depression. She really just needs someone that cares and loves her. She's been bullied her whole life or abused it seems. It's such a sad thing to see, a beloved Daughter of God be hurt. I expressed to her how much I loved and cared for her, and how sad I was to see the pain that she was in. I've felt so much love for her, and I know Heavenly Father loves her so dearly. Tears gathered in her eyes when I told her that, and she said, "I've never felt so cared for in my life." I was baffled as what to say next. I was literally speechless. I realized though, that sometimes the best things you can do, is to just let the Spirit take over, and just be quiet. It was a beautiful moment to be in.
So you know how I've been doing the 40 day fast right? Well, one of things I'm fasting for is worldly music. Trust me it's hard. To me, music was everything. Before my mission, I literally listened to music 24/7. I could not live without it. When I was at BYU Summer Term, I'd play my Iphone outloud for everyone to hear, and just everywhere else I went. It was a way for me to distress and get away from all of the stresses in the world.
However, I realized something during my fast, and it hit me when I was riding the rot dang. Since I played music all the time, especially when I was really stressed, I missed a lot of opportunities to talk to my Heavenly Father. I also missed out SO many opportunities and allow Him to speak to me and help me. How many times does that happen in our lives? It's too numerous to count. Not saying I'm never listening to music again, but I'm really going to be trying to listen more to the Spirit from here on out!
I mentioned this part to President Senior:
President, I hate to be the one to say this. But sometimes I wonder if I'm actually here on the mission more for the missionaries or what? I know in my interview I mentioned that I don't want to be a burden, but that's what I've always felt like my whole life. I feel like I can only help missionaries, and I don't know how to teach and help my investigators, members, etc. I feel like the only person I really know how to reach out to is Lolee and a couple of other people. President, I hate to be that missionary that whines and such, but lately I just feel like I'm slowing the work down, and so I'm just trying to let you know that I'm really trying. I'm praying for help, and seriously President I have this desire to literally help EVERYONE! I want to help everyone to know that they have a have someone that cares about them, and that with Christ all things are possible, and He knows and loves each of us. I just don't know how yet. Please be patient with me!
Thanks for always listening and caring. Please let me know what I can do to help! Love you!
Love,
Sister Woodbury
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